Tuesday, January 18, 2011
If only i knew how you feel. If only i have a greater love. if only i can make people disappear. along with the memories of them.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
When all i'm doing is sitting down there waiting for you reply..
Fuck it, just what did i do now?
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I guess here's where i can rant all my thoughts without anyone noticing.
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Seriously, i don't get it, how come whenever i ask or talk to you about my feelings you will feel pressurized and when he talks to you about it you just listened to everything he says and even wanna give him a second chance.
I still don't know why, why you told me you don't want to be committed that's why you don't want to get into an relationship with me and instead you wanna go into another one with him.
Just, in what way do i lose to him. ok, i admit, he knows how to drive, he know you for a longer period of time, you guys are in a clique, your clique's people keeps matchmaking you two together, this Je who always tell you things about kh and what else did i lose in? My hardwork? My enthusiasm?
I don't know why, why i lose to someone who randomly confessed to you in a day and which totally owned my 4 months of hardwork and effort.
Hey darling, it's already 7months since i know you and start chasing you. I was glad that we are able to start dating even though not in a relationship.. Do you feel how i feel?
What am i supposed to now? tell me? play Mr Nice Guy again? No, not this time. I got to admit, i'm bloody selfish, i dont't wanna lose you, i want you all for myself. This time , i can't give you my wishing like i did before, It really ain't me you know? giving wishes to someone i love to be with another man. The thing inside me, it's screaming, it wanna come out of me. This terrible feeling..
Thursday, October 21, 2010
If i tell you i love you, would you be there.
If i tell you i been dreaming those dreams where we are together, would you be there?
If i .....
Looking back at my prev posts made in may, i felt stupid. like a king asking advices from a joker who's trying to take over the kingdom
Sometimes i wonder, when is it real, and when is it not
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